The friend

Because of past events it has been really hard for me to talk to this friend. I know he is not to blame in any way shape or form but now when ever I talk to him, it reminds me of what happened. It was after all in his room. And I never would have been there if he hadn't shown up at my house drunk. I would have been watching a movie with my boyfriend. [We actually split up because of it and just got back together about two weeks ago((I was pushing him away because I was one day clingy and the next hated the world))]. But I also could have gone home right away or gone home when he left in the morning but I stayed. Or we could also say I could have said no to drinking ( for the record I don't drink more then one beer now). But it's all pointless thinking because it has already happened. The most I can do is take action to not let it repeat ever again. 

   He doesn't seem to understand thought that this is really hard for me, and when I explained to him why I felt that way he took it that i was blaming him and I don't I mean I guess in a small way maybe. But mostly, I blame myself. I knew X was not a good guy and I stayed anyhow I went there anyhow. So if you ever get that feeling you should go home. Just go home. It is better to miss out on something then to possible miss judge someone. I just wish there was an easier way to explain to my friend that I don't blame him because I already told him I don't and it's not enough. I am almost furious with him because instead of trying to support me on what I am going through, he has made it about him.